should i move on ?

we broke up a month ago should i wait or move on ?

background -

i met C on tinder, in late february of this year. we ended up living almost 2 hrs away from each other, so we both met in the middle for our first date. we hit it off immediately and met in the middle 4 times before deciding i was going to stay a night at his house and met his dad, i fell in love with his family, 2 weeks later he met my parents. In late march we established we were “talking” and continued to drive back and forth to each others house. in late april he asked me to be officially, we just made so much since together so said yes. through out the summer i starting working full time and C started trade school and continued to work. we went to the beach with my best friend (the 2nd pic), and spent most of our free time together.

the break up -

late july we had a talk and came to the conclusion we couldn’t see each other as much because our schedules started to rlly conflict. so of course in true August fashion, 3 days in he broke up with me, over facetime :( it was a VERY bitter sweet conversation, he basically told me because of the 2hour drive, school/work, and starting a business, he “couldn’t give me the time i deserve” but wanted to get back together in the future when life gets less busy. he literally pinky promised me he genuinely just needed to figure his work stuff out on his own and has no want to hook up with other ppl, because he “knows he won’t find anyone else”..

post break up- i was extremely hurt at first because i thought we could work it out, however we stayed in touch and i saw how busy he actually got. once i realized he was being truthful abt how much he has going on i felt like we’d fall back together.

why im on the fence- he asked what i was going for my birthday i told him i was going to drive to the beach (3hrs away) by myself, and C basically told me no way i was spending my birthday alone and that he’d plan a trip for us, and about a week later i drove to his house (because he lives closer) and for the first time in a month and a half saw him. all and i mean ALL the feels came back. i stayed the night, we fell asleep in his bed just talking about life then we woke up and went to the beach together, we just stayed one night. he drove, took me to diner and even got 2 beds lmaooo…he paid for everything because he “wanted my birthday to be special” :,)

if you took out the scheduling conflicts our relationship was flawless, we never argued, we always communicated with each other, enjoyed each other’s hobbies. but in the end i feel stupid because yes, i’m only 20, and i genuinely think i’ll never feel this way for anyone else. part of me knows he’s my best friend and we will come back together with time but on the other hand i miss him so incredibly much, i just want to get past this hurt that i don’t have him romantically anymore. im just so stuck between what could be and what reality is. #breakuprecovery #whatshouldido