I’m Pregnant… Now What??

My spark notes pregnancy story📖

I found I was pregnant at halfway through my Junior year of College, I was 20, and yes… I was on birth control.

I was planning on transferring to a different college and had just submitted all my applications to places like UCLA, UCSD, CSUN, UH to name a few. I was ready to take on life… or so I thought.

My periods were never regular. I never thought anything of missing one because it occasionally happened. I did notice my breasts starting to grow but I thought it was a delayed effect of the BC. It wasn’t until I began having a nausea I had never felt before that I started feeling like something may be up. Honestly, I thought I had COVID.

I was in LA at the time, my (then) boyfriend of almost 2 years played college football and due to classes being online I would stay with him. It was the day of his rivalry game, I was alone in the apartment. I woke up feeling SICK.

I called my bestfriend who played Volleyball at the same college and asked her to borrow soup. I remember we had an extra pregnancy test from when I tried to pull a prank. The 2nd line popped up before I could even finish peeing.

I remember seeing my child’s father on the screen and thinking “he has no clue what’s happening”. We talked before the game, but I wasn’t going to break the news over text, let alone, throw him out of his element (I’m so considerate). It was a close game, I was fearful of them losing, because it would make the news even harder to break. Or make me not want to say anything at all..

I had a plan.. the minute I saw him it went out the window. I dropped all 10 tests (with the caps on) on his lap. From there we weighed out all our options. I gave him the choice to walk away with no commitment if he wanted. We decided to start a family. Not without the help and support of my Mom and Dad. Who I was terrified to tell.

I had done something they never wanted. Got pregnant before marriage. Before graduating college. My parents are refugees from Cambodia, the “American Dream” is all they wanted from me. I let them down. But to have their support made me feel invincible.

The following months were rough. I was already 2 months when I found out. I had terrible morning sickness and I was alone for most of my pregnancy. As I stayed in San Diego to keep up with appointments. I withdrew from college but obtained my AA in Psychology (with plans to finish someday). I worked my entire pregnancy, saving every tip I made, and milking the fact I was working well in my 30 weeks to prepare for baby girl.

August 5, 2021. I became a mother.

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