Let’s talk Mental Health

TW: $UICIDE

I have struggled with my anxiety since middle school. I was only 14 when I was prescribed meds for it. Unfortunately, it runs in my family and is outside of my control.

After suffering two major injuries in college, I found myself asking “why me?” I was on the sidelines watching my friends being able to play. As someone who has played sports my whole life this was hard. I felt useless and questioned if maybe I should give up.

I fell into a deep depression along with terrible anxiety. Nothing helped (meds, therapy) and I was giving up.

This past summer, I had at least one panic attack a day. My mom would try to help, but she couldn’t and I would just bawl and bawl. The doctors upped my meds which made me sick (I have extreme emetophobia, so this only made things worse). I decided I wanted to give up as I believed nothing was going to change.

I’m not going to lie, I really thought I wouldn’t be here anymore, but I thank God for helping me and not letting my story end.

I started therapy with someone I loved, which helped so much. I left my college and lacrosse team to stay home to better myself. I do miss it, but this was the best decision I have ever made.

I want to tell my story to show that there is hope and there is help. Don’t be afraid to ask for help. Don’t give up. Keep fighting because I promise it will get better.

If anyone needs someone to talk to, my DMs are always open🫶

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@Captain Lemon8 @Lemon8 US