Resigned in 3 months?!

Never thought I’ll be the person who quits during probation but here I am. As I’m someone who lives by the saying “never try never know” and with that, I’ll always tell myself to wait out and things may be better. Even worse! I’ll gaslight myself into thinking I’m hallucinating about the bad and convince myself I’m happy just to persevere on.

I tried all methods to stay on but … I started noticing negative changes in me - such as isolating myself, being extremely quiet and not finding joy in things anymore. Everyday, I just DREAD work and finding ways to escape from reality. I know if I were to continue to stay, my mental health and r/s with others will deteriorate.

So what’s so bad? Firstly, my boss is one of the worst persons I’ve met. Besides constantly projecting his insecurities, he’s someone without direction or idea about what he’s saying/doing. he wants us to follow his instructions but pushes the blames to us if things go south. hence, it’s very stressful going to work daily fearing what’s his next move.

the team is close when there’s a common enemy (my boss). they have went through ups and downs tgt before I joined, and oftentimes, it is just me and them. never felt connected to them.

direct team’s colleague also tend to withhold information/contacts just so she is in control while I struggle to learn the ropes.

I’ll say the job itself is not difficult but the lack of support is. all these factors made someone who looks forward to a working day to hate work SOOO much. though the salary is much better than my previous workplace, I believe my happiness and mental wellness supersede anything.

Right, now I’m in a company with supportive bosses, coworkers and positive environment on top of a promising career progression. Working OT never felt so good 🤩 took a small pay cut but WHATEVER!

sometimes I’ll still look back and wonder have I gone so soft that I can’t get through hardships? definitely I still need more drillings to harden up 🤪

Not to mention, the 15 days of AL taken turned to NPL bcos of my short tenure.

🤡 broke and jobless when I left 🤡 BUT NO RAGRETS!

#BeReal #career #mentalhealthawareness