The best day of my life turns into the worst day

In October, I received the life-changing news that you were on the way. I'll never forget the mix of excitement and nervousness when those two pink lines appeared on the test. The idea of having two kids under 2 was daunting at first, but as time went on, I couldn't help but feel overjoyed by the thought of expanding our family. Welcoming another little one was a dream come true for us.

In November, I had the incredible experience of seeing you for the first time on the screen. Tears filled my eyes as the reality of your impending arrival sank in. From that moment, I made a promise to protect you and eagerly awaited your arrival.

Overall, my pregnancy went smoothly, aside from the usual morning sickness. It was truly amazing to witness your growth every week!

However, things took a turn after the 20-week mark when we had the anatomy scan. We received the news about your enlarged kidneys and the need for closer monitoring. Subsequent appointments every few weeks became our new normal as we navigated this unexpected challenge.

June 10th arrived before we were ready, and it was finally time for you to enter the world. After enduring 12 hours of challenging labor, you made your grand entrance. Despite the many warnings from the doctors, we cherished every moment we had with you before you peacefully passed away in our arms after just one hour. It's been nearly 2 months, and the void in my heart remains as deep as the day you left. I wonder if it will ever heal. Last night, I had the privilege of meeting some incredible people who had also experienced the loss of a child. They allowed me to honor you by placing your name alongside other beloved babies who had passed. They even assisted me with arranging for a headstone, a gesture for which I will be eternally grateful. Please continue to watch over me every day. 🫶

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