My Purity Ring 💍

I fell into celibacy, not by choice…but accidentally on purpose.

I was in a 5 year relationship & we had just gone sexless out of nowhere (our personal lives WERE hectic) when I got in the mood…I would ask & he would deny & vice versa.

I decided to just dive DEEPER into my walk with Christ. Well, we broke up in September…& we didn’t separate physically until the lease was up December/January.

I left & in the midst of my healing…I got strayed off my walk. Distracted by a guy I knew, who was giving what I had been missing…time & attention…smh…a dang demon in disguise. All the signs were there…one being that he was as Muslim. How can we be equally yoked if we are on two different spiritual paths? He use to date one of my old clients & they had a kid 😵‍💫

Now Leek, are you that desperate? I asked myself. I was ignoring red flags so bad, I thought I was at six flags. 🤦🏽‍♀️

He respected my walk & my celibacy…so I thought…he asked me to come stay night…no funny business 🙄 I did & on my way…I knew that my year of celibacy was gonna end there…he did everything to persuade me out the draws. & what I do? LET HIM 😭

After our first time…he tapped this very ring & said “you can go ahead & take that off…” as sly as the devil himself. I felt so terribly low, like how could I do this to me, my journey & GOD!!? I did take it off & it felt sooo weird without it on. 💔

Something life altering happened to me & I told him & he dragged me through the mud. Made me feel so low, like scum of the earth. Called me out my name. Threatened me. Stalked me. It was terrible.

We only dealt with each other 3 weeks 😵‍💫 & I finally got rid of him about June altogether. After those 3 weeks, I put my ring back on.

The situation traumatized me so bad, I locked in even harder with Christ & my celibacy.

I still have my days where I want the intimacy, to be touched & loved on but then I think…sex has done nothing but destroy my life…it’s not worth it.

Today, I ordered me a NEW celibacy ring & it’s gorgeous! I can’t wait to show y’all.

The next ring to be on my finger will be from my husband. Because he will be the next one to have access to me in the most intimate way ever. ✨

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