I’m Latina but I don’t feel Latina enough

Ever since I was young I was made to feel like I wasn’t Latina enough. I remember my cousins making fun of me for not listening to Mexican music like they did and for not knowing how to dance Mexican music like they did. They would tell me that I was trying to act white.

As I got older and started hanging out more with Latinos I started to notice that I didn’t have a lot in common with them except for the fact that I too was Latina. It kinda made me feel like I wasn’t Mexican or latina enough and I was always comparing myself to them.

Even thought I am 5’2 I would always be the tallest amongst my friends and I hated it so much. My Mexican friends where also more brown then me and I even had someone tell me that they would have not guessed I was Mexican.

I’ve been told that my aesthetics are of a white girl. That the way I want to parent is for white people. That I listen to white people music. That I dress like a white girl. Im not curvy like other latinas. I don’t have the attitude or spice of a Latina. It got to the point where I would only listen to Hispanic music and would watch everything in Spanish because I want to be enough.

Now I’m ok with not being Latina enough for some people. I like listening to American music, I like watch American shows, I like eating American food here and there and yes I love pumpkin spice lattes

and I will continue getting Starbucks everyday if I want to. And you know what I will also continue with my neutral colors aesthetics. And no I will not be buying a blanket with a tiger on it, I don’t like how it looks.

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